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Its dark here in Peterborough; the moon was still in the sky when I let Demetri out for his morning wander into the darkness and stillness prevalent at this time of year. He was a little unsure this morning preferring to hog my company before finally deciding that he wanted out. Whether he comes back again before I leave the building will be another matter but he will be out all day otherwise. Yesterday he came home and spent the day asleep with the others before I left.
I had just got the door shut and was making tea for myself and our dog Missy (Jack Russell) [she loves a cup of tea in the morning] when Squeak started squawking she wanted out also. All of my animals past and present have always been extremely vocal and all have come to the whistle. The neighbour laughs his head off when I start whistling them as you get animals coming from all directions well at least we did as at one time I had five cats and Missy. Squeak usually comes when whistled; Demetri comes in if he hears or wants to snuggle . Missy gets walked early and OH does not like walking her in the dark at this time of year but she gets a good run each day and is in a good routine.
I am a little off colour not firing on all pistons at the moment and I absolutely hate it. Its as though another personality overshadows me completely; a totally alien personality to my normal demeanour which I find terrible to cope with. Irritatingly to a lot of people I am normally very happy go lucky and tend to be very positive but when like this I tend to go quiet and go into myself which I am not sure is always a good thing either. Perhaps I am over analysing. As Churchill called it "the black dog". I tend to keep to myself when I am like this as I do not wish to inflict what I am experiencing on anyone else and I tend to "snap" when in this kind of mood so apologies all round - I just don't like it when I am like this. Its annoying and fortunately does not happen very often and is often a reaction to constant pain, constant wet or people just getting me down. My partner is bipolar and sometimes things get a bit difficult there as well.
I tend to feel vulnerable too and not worthy enough or good enough when going through these episodes. I am very lucky in the greater scheme of things, my problems are fleeting compared to a lot of other people and are put into perspective by others problems and although irritating to me are not a terrible problem a pain in the bum yes. One thing I do do is slow up a little when I am like this and try and be kinder and gentler to myself so if I need a sit down I take it etc. I thought in an effort to try and break this cycle if I tried to talk about it a little (something I am not too good at either) it might help try and break this vicious cycle which really does get me down). I can go many months without an episode and I know I am not the only one. Do you get the January blues and what self-help strategies do you employ to overcome them. I would love to hear how you cope and what mechanisms you employ. One thing that women do is talk - they try and overcome problems they are experiencing by talking and by learning from other peoples experience; talking in itself is a release mechanism.
Right must dash will try and catch up later.
Have a good day and if things are not so good take time to breathe and be gentle on yourself. Tomorrow will be another day a fresh page to fill.
Catch up later